• The one about stress

    by  • March 31, 2012 • 0 Comments

    Wasup, Party People!

    Yo! What it be like, homie?

    Ah, my bestest friend in the westest end!

    That’s me, G. What’s all this about stress?

    Oh yea, Well.. let’s see. You know about CoVis, right?

    Duh. It’s the awesome new coworking place in Omaha started by mine’s truly.

    Yessir! Well, Obviously, dropping all this coin and signing all these contacts in hopes of breaking even or [gasp!] turning a profit.. well, that’s some stressful shtuff!

    Understandably so. Good luck to you, buddy boy. ..but I’m sure you knew that’d be stressful?

    I did. It’s planned stress, I’m cool with that. The thing is, I’ve had this reeeeallly annoying headache for several months now. I got an MRI, which came up fine, so odds are I’m just stressed to the top. Of course, it could be some odd side-effect from taking ProVigil, but I doubt it.

    Anyhoo, as if I’m not already top-heavy, people have decided to start throwing stones at me. I mean, I know I’m not perfect, and I know that sometimes I can come off as a conceited arsehole and whatnot, but I really do try to do good. Ya know?

    I do. Don’t forget tho, no good deed goes unpunished.

    I know. Last year was nuts, I literally went nuts. I said and did things that I’m not proud of, nothing horrible, but definitely stupid and not well-planned. i wish I could go back in time and undo it all.. all of it. Every goddamn second of it. It was a low spot for me, a Charlie Sheen moment. I didn’t think things through, I let my feelings control me, and we all know feelings are damn unreliable.

    Yup, that’s why I don’t have any.

    Lucky you. Me, I have them, but I usually let my logic overpower them. Last year, emotions won the battle. Logic took a back seat and just watched as I made a spectacle of myself and burned a path of self-destruction and humiliation.

    Well, it’s over now, right?

    It is. This year, it’s like I’ve been reborn. I have passion and drive back in my life. I have a desire to be a gooder person, to help people, to be person I know I can be. I’ve been doing good, I’ve been going out of my way to be nicer and to see things from the perspective of others. I’m trying to live my life from the outside-in. I want to erase all the bad from the past. I want to live every day like it’s day 1.

    That sounds like a good idea, the past is unreliable anyway.

    I know. I’ve read enough to know that our memories are distorted, the human mind is crap.

    Except mine.

    Right. I know haters gonna hate, and I know it’s hard to convince people of what’s inside you when the outside doesn’t match. I know I have a lot of baggage to overcome. I know I’m not a superhero, I have no business meddling in the affairs of others. I know I need to forgive, forget, and forge ahead. It’s not easy.

    So what’s the plan?

    I dunno. I guess I just keep trying to be a better person. I want the people I’ve hurt to know that I’m genuinely sorry, that I regret being a source of pain, and that I’m willing to meet with them to start rebuilding relationships and making amends.

    I’m not perfect. I can’t promise that I won’t ever do anything stupid again, fact is I have a pretty damn high stupid to smart ratio. I will screw up again, but who doesn’t?

    me?

    Yea, but besides you? We all make mistakes, that’s no reason to go around hurting people.

    Word. Want my advice?

    Yea!

    Hold your head up, keep moving forward, and work doubly hard to show people what’s deep inside you. You’re a good person, but you let your fears take over and run the show. Kick that shit to the curb, yo. Be fierce, be progressive, actually be gooder.

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    The one where I start CoVis

    by  • February 12, 2012 • 0 Comments

    I had a plan. I had something like 18 days off of work for the holidays, so I decided it would be a perfect amount of time to write a book. The book was “Words of Visdom”, just a collection of essays concerning the lessons I’ve learned in the last couple years, based on the tweets I’ve sent out under the #visdom hashtag.

    It wasn’t a bad plan, use my time off to write a simple, yet meaningful book. The problem, however, was that I knew I’d have a hard time sticking to plan if I did the writing at home. There are just too many distractions.. TV shows, videogames, laundry, dishes, bla bla bla. If I was going to focus, I needed to get out of the house. It didn’t take me long to decide that the perfect place would be CAMP Coworking in Downtown Omaha. I’m an early riser, and I’m well-aware of the fact that the owner of CAMP, Megan, is a night-owl herself. That’s why at 5am, on my first day of vacation, I drove the 20 miles to put digital pen to digital paper.

    Unfortunately, my lack of planning, and reliance on the universe to grease my wheels, did not work in my favor. CAMP was CLOSED. I waited around for a half hour or so, but nobody showed. I tucked my tail between my legs and started back home, telling myself that I’d try again later.. after a nap.

    The nap turned into a half-night’s rest. When I awoke, there was no way I was going to drive another 40 miles. “Tomorrow.”, I told myself. The next morning, after silencing my alarm, I stared at the ceiling while listening to the debate in my head. It took a few minutes, but finally all the voices agreed on one thing.. take control. It was then that I made the decision to open a coworking spot out west, closer to home.

    Not being one to step on toes, I contacted Megan and asked for her blessing. She not only gave it, but she also pointed me towards my first clients. Thank you, Universe! ..and Megan, of course.

    Since then, I’ve been wheelin’ and dealin’, trying to line up all the ducks and waiting for the chickens to hatch before taking inventory. Things are progressing smoothly.

    The place is called CoVis CoWorking, and it’ll be right off Interstate 680 and Pacific Street in Omaha. This is not only an awesome location due to all the great places nearby, or it’s easy access, but it seems to be where the universe and I collide. You see, There used to be a little club called The Naughty Lounge there, and I used to be a DJ there. It’s where I met Special K, the gal I fell head over heels for. There’s also a Ruby Tuesday across the way, and that’s where I met one of my best friends, ShySpark. And ifso-facto, one of the smartest gals I’ve ever known, GeeketteSpeaks, lives just a block away. Like I said, the universe wants me there.

    For the last two months, this has all just been talk. Tomorrow, however, I sign the lease and this all gets real. I’m terrified. I’m bankrolling this all myself, and this is going to be one hell of a costly experiment. You see, I’m an introvert. I spend most of my time trapped in my very own mind. It’s a fun place, there’s hopes and dreams and big explosions and all that, but it’s also a very lonely place.

    Coworking is about sharing a space with others, being productive and collaborating. I need this more than anything. When I joined the Air Force back in 1994, I was a caveman. My whole world prior to that was defined by my family, and the isolated community I lived in. The military, and the way it pulls people out of your life and forces new faces upon you, is what made me evolve. By frequently being exposed to such diversity, my mind was forced to learn and dive into new experiences. It’s a great feeling. It’s something that has been severely lacking in my life recently.

    I’m excited for CoVis. I will be introduced to new faces, new ideas, new possibilities. That’s all food for my mind, it energizes me. Unfortunately, as an introvert, my social circle is fairly small, and my social phobia sits on my shoulder and tells me that if I build it, no one will come. That’s scary shit.

    On the bright side, I’ve failed so much in this life, that I’d probably be more shocked if I succeeded! So I’m going into this ready for the worst. Bring it, World. I’ve been taking punches since before I could walk, and I’m still kickin’.

    Anyway, there it is. I’m doing this. CoVis Coworking is set for a soft launch on April 1st, how fitting. I’ll get around to a hard launch when I can find some porn stars. Heh.

    For more details, check out the CoVis CoWorking website, and follow the @covisco twitter account.

    I ask for your support, and your help spreading the word.
    Thanks in advance.

    Skid Vis

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    The Brand New Brand

    by  • January 1, 2012 • 0 Comments

    For Christmas this year, a good friend gave me a shirt. The shirt was nice, it was yet another of my favored Mark Ecko shirts. What intrigued me, however, was the bag that it came in. Staring me smack-dab in the face was the logo that adorns the vast majority of my shirts. I sat [...]

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    The Uninvited Guest

    by  • December 31, 2011 • 0 Comments

    The year is over, yet this bad comedy continues. The new year approaches, and the time has come for change. It is my wish that this new year brings you many blessings, that you never feel sorrow, and that all your dreams come to be. I must let you go. I cannot continue to write [...]

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    The Last Year

    by  • December 25, 2011 • 0 Comments

    Wow, This last year, right? It’s been.. what’s the word? Tumultuous? Yea! Totally. Wow. I fell in love, but that all went horribly awry. I pushed all the wrong buttons and was left to the reality that I’m just not meant to have that sort of life. Aww c’mon, it couldn’t have been all bad? [...]

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    The Right In What’s Left

    by  • December 14, 2011 • 0 Comments

    The world has ended. The impact has caused an uprising of debris that’s blocked out the sun. Your nightmares have ripped through your soul and now stand before you, smiling, taunting you. What do you do? What can I? Nothing. You sit there, you watch the timer as it counts down the end of your [...]

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    The Last 18 Months

    by  • December 10, 2011 • 0 Comments

    I’m in the eye of the storm. The last 18 months have been quite turbulent, they’ve been a testament to the range of human emotion. I’ve felt happy, hopeful, angry, sad, loved, abandoned, useful, and useless. This is the cost of being the spirit that I am, ducking and weaving in and out of the [...]

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    The Far Side Of Close

    by  • November 18, 2011 • 0 Comments

    They say “Keep your friends close, and your enemies closer.”, but what about those who are neither? What about the people who mean something to you, but have fallen out of favor, or have otherwise become distant? How do you let them know that they still exist? How can you tell them that they are [...]

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    The Counter

    by  • October 31, 2011 • 0 Comments

    It was just another lazy night. I was on the couch, catching up on my DVRed episodes of The Biggest Loser, trying not to laugh at the irony of me sitting there practically inhaling Ben & Jerry’s Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream. “I’ll just spend an extra hour on the treadmill tomorrow, it’s worth [...]

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    The Short Walk

    by  • September 30, 2011 • 0 Comments

    Dude, guess what.. Your mom. No, try again.. Your mom? Ugh.. no! Tomorrow’s the day! You mean?! Tomorrow you lose your virginity?? What?! No! Tomorrow I’m going SKYDIVING!!! Yay!! ..wait, what?! I didn’t approve this! haha! Um, can we talk about this? Sure! What do you wanna talk about? Ok.. can we not do this? [...]

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    The Love Lex

    by  • September 21, 2011 • 0 Comments

    Hey, are you ready for more rules?? Golly gee, am I ever! ..not really, but whatevs. Great!! Well, today I wanna talk about the rules of looooove. lol! You? Have you seen your love life? Hey, even the greatest pilots can crash and burn. We all make mistakes, especially me. Just because I know the [...]

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    The 6-foot Ruler

    by  • September 14, 2011 • 0 Comments

    I rule. Word, you’re pretty cool. No, I mean I rule! Yea, that’s what you said. Oh, you mean like a king or something? Bingo, Gringo! What?! You know I’m not.. never mind, go on. Thank you, kindly. I operate, or at least I try my damnedest to operate in this world according to a [...]

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